Is exactly what I worried about once I started this blog. I've been focused elsewhere, as you might guess. It's been mostly illness, whether it's myself or my kids.
I don't know. I feel rather spread out and not willing to give myself to much of anything except my family. Although I do enjoy venting, I have to have time to do so. Not that this is meant to be a "vent" per se but an expression of opinions.
I'd like to talk about news but not today.
I am alive though and do have plans to keep blogging.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Office politics
I feel like I'm getting the first taste of those things that you only see happen in movies about office gossip and such. Gladly, I am on the outskirts of things but I can see how I'm going to get pulled in rather quickly by the office "mates" I have made and those that I haven't. Being an analyst puts me at somewhat of an advantage because I don't quite work in the trenches, so to speak. I don't have any direct say as to how things "should be" or do the work they do or know the rules that should be followed or broken. Well, in essence, I know the rules but on the computer side of things.
Anyways, I guess rules weren't followed somehow along the lines by some people and they were by others. The problem was that the supervisor was the one not following the rules and was training new people in the wrong way. Now, my "friends" have been doing it the right way and been doing so for awhile because they implemented the change after a meeting and I'm guessing assumed the supervisor had done the same thing. (The whole problem with this entire process is the fact that there is NO process. Changes are implemented and it's like management just hopes things will take or something.)
Aaaaaaanyways, so I guess last Thursday, the supervisor was training some people and my friends heard her and corrected her. The supervisor got upset and tried to stand her ground, being supervisor and all and in turn, inadvertantly accused them of either lying or holding things back from her. Quickly enough it escalated into a who's side is who's and what is the way we've been doing things and who's allied with who.
Things ended in silence BUT this is the part that I don't like. Everyone is, of course, entitled to taking their own time and doing what they want on their own time. But, that evening, the allied ones with the supervisor went over to her house and sat around, having some drinks and hot tubbing. Things were obviously assumed to have been said. This is a bunch of women, after all. And now there is silence in the office between the 2 groups.
I get to hear about this today of all things! This is because I don't sit on the floor anymore, I'm in an office. I'm also getting pegged as anti-social but I'm thinking that's probably the better way to play it right now. It's just part of my job has me interacting with one of my friends so I got to hear about it and understand why it's so damn quiet out there lately. Also, it kinda helps that I was sick yesterday.
BUT did I get looks today! I usually do the polite office "Good morning" or smile but today, I wasn't greeted or smiled at in return. *sigh* How sad. I wonder how tomorrow will be as I have another day with my friend in my office. And we laugh and giggle. I'm sure the gears will be aturning tomorrow about what we "MUST BE SAYING" about the others. And our manager is gone on holidays. *ACK*
Anyways, I guess rules weren't followed somehow along the lines by some people and they were by others. The problem was that the supervisor was the one not following the rules and was training new people in the wrong way. Now, my "friends" have been doing it the right way and been doing so for awhile because they implemented the change after a meeting and I'm guessing assumed the supervisor had done the same thing. (The whole problem with this entire process is the fact that there is NO process. Changes are implemented and it's like management just hopes things will take or something.)
Aaaaaaanyways, so I guess last Thursday, the supervisor was training some people and my friends heard her and corrected her. The supervisor got upset and tried to stand her ground, being supervisor and all and in turn, inadvertantly accused them of either lying or holding things back from her. Quickly enough it escalated into a who's side is who's and what is the way we've been doing things and who's allied with who.
Things ended in silence BUT this is the part that I don't like. Everyone is, of course, entitled to taking their own time and doing what they want on their own time. But, that evening, the allied ones with the supervisor went over to her house and sat around, having some drinks and hot tubbing. Things were obviously assumed to have been said. This is a bunch of women, after all. And now there is silence in the office between the 2 groups.
I get to hear about this today of all things! This is because I don't sit on the floor anymore, I'm in an office. I'm also getting pegged as anti-social but I'm thinking that's probably the better way to play it right now. It's just part of my job has me interacting with one of my friends so I got to hear about it and understand why it's so damn quiet out there lately. Also, it kinda helps that I was sick yesterday.
BUT did I get looks today! I usually do the polite office "Good morning" or smile but today, I wasn't greeted or smiled at in return. *sigh* How sad. I wonder how tomorrow will be as I have another day with my friend in my office. And we laugh and giggle. I'm sure the gears will be aturning tomorrow about what we "MUST BE SAYING" about the others. And our manager is gone on holidays. *ACK*
Monday, August 13, 2007
Gossip about Sinnamon
Right, so I had to decide about my anonymity on here and figured that yeah, I'll talk about this. So... J, who I mentioned before, is in another city and we're very clearly in a non-relationship but I get to deal with all the goodies of being treated like I am the girlfriend. For example, him getting jealous over me having a picture on Facebook sitting with another guy (and I can safely say I will have a freakout entry one day about Facebook, god I hate that site) or getting jealous because I have someone show up on my friends list who's a guy I went on a date with ONCE or getting upset because I'm going out with my single girlfriends to the club or getting upset because I don't place him as my highest priority when he wants something. Even this kind of behaviour I don't tolerate well in a relationship so this really just irritates the F outta me when this happens. We're not together and he's told me he doesn't know when I ask him if we're bf/gf or if he wants to be with me. Personally, I'm done with him, I just find it incredibly hard to end the friendship.
Anyways. Point? J has a best friend who he grew up with as a teenager and they both came over from Africa together, went to school together, lived together, etc. Said best friend (I'll call him K) lives here in my city and we talk on MSN and go to the odd movie together and get along rather well BUT knowing J's intese jealousy, we avoid each other for the most part.
About 8 months ago, me and K were joking around on MSN and sort of making fun of this non-relationship me and J are in. We both are aware of his jealousy and thought we'd see what happened if we told J that me and K are gonna go on a date. At first there was disbelief and J didn't believe it at all. Then we convinced him it's true and we're going to just try it out. J lit on fire, gave us both an intense amount of crap, almost started crying, etc. so we had to bail out on the joke. BUT, said joke kind of ignited this thought in our minds and we do have this sort of latent attraction for each other but we didn't do anything about it because of J.
K and I have been talking on MSN a lot and we've been doing a lot of flirting lately and talking about sexual things (not what we'd do to each other but just what we like, fantasies, etc.) and generally walking on thin ice. K is in a relationship with this girl who lives in the US and this is also an on again, off again relationship but they are commited to each other and do hope to be together in the future one day. They see each other 3 times a year. I don't know why I mentioned her, I guess it's my own guilt.
Anyways, Saturday evening, K and I ended up seeing each other face to face after a lengthy conversation on MSN and we ended up taking things too far. We'd never done anything physical before, not even a touch. That night we definitely touched. We held each other, we caressed, fondled, etc. We definitely took things to another level that we shouldn't have. We didn't have sex or even kiss but still. Things changed.
My question is my guilt. Is it because of this non-relationship I'm in? Yes. I would feel so bad if J found out. I want him to commit to me and he refuses ... so I'm doing what? Trying to get even by messing around with his best friend? Why do I feel so guilty? He doesn't want to be with me long-term. *sigh*
K and I definitly broke the rules though. That's his best friend. Stupider thing too is that obviously K doesn't want to be with me either, he wants to be with that girl in the US. I just feel stupid for even making that choice to see him. It was my selfishness that wanted to just feel him once in my arms. It's like dipping your toe in the water but knowing it's too cold to go for a swim.
I have to make sure I back off really well here. I can't let my selfishness get in the way of my life or other's lives like that again. Surely K needs to think about that too if he really wants to be with that girl. But for me, I know that if I want to ever even consider being in a relationship with anyone, I can't be doing things like that. You just never mess with a guy's best friend. It's like one of those rules.
Anyways. Point? J has a best friend who he grew up with as a teenager and they both came over from Africa together, went to school together, lived together, etc. Said best friend (I'll call him K) lives here in my city and we talk on MSN and go to the odd movie together and get along rather well BUT knowing J's intese jealousy, we avoid each other for the most part.
About 8 months ago, me and K were joking around on MSN and sort of making fun of this non-relationship me and J are in. We both are aware of his jealousy and thought we'd see what happened if we told J that me and K are gonna go on a date. At first there was disbelief and J didn't believe it at all. Then we convinced him it's true and we're going to just try it out. J lit on fire, gave us both an intense amount of crap, almost started crying, etc. so we had to bail out on the joke. BUT, said joke kind of ignited this thought in our minds and we do have this sort of latent attraction for each other but we didn't do anything about it because of J.
K and I have been talking on MSN a lot and we've been doing a lot of flirting lately and talking about sexual things (not what we'd do to each other but just what we like, fantasies, etc.) and generally walking on thin ice. K is in a relationship with this girl who lives in the US and this is also an on again, off again relationship but they are commited to each other and do hope to be together in the future one day. They see each other 3 times a year. I don't know why I mentioned her, I guess it's my own guilt.
Anyways, Saturday evening, K and I ended up seeing each other face to face after a lengthy conversation on MSN and we ended up taking things too far. We'd never done anything physical before, not even a touch. That night we definitely touched. We held each other, we caressed, fondled, etc. We definitely took things to another level that we shouldn't have. We didn't have sex or even kiss but still. Things changed.
My question is my guilt. Is it because of this non-relationship I'm in? Yes. I would feel so bad if J found out. I want him to commit to me and he refuses ... so I'm doing what? Trying to get even by messing around with his best friend? Why do I feel so guilty? He doesn't want to be with me long-term. *sigh*
K and I definitly broke the rules though. That's his best friend. Stupider thing too is that obviously K doesn't want to be with me either, he wants to be with that girl in the US. I just feel stupid for even making that choice to see him. It was my selfishness that wanted to just feel him once in my arms. It's like dipping your toe in the water but knowing it's too cold to go for a swim.
I have to make sure I back off really well here. I can't let my selfishness get in the way of my life or other's lives like that again. Surely K needs to think about that too if he really wants to be with that girl. But for me, I know that if I want to ever even consider being in a relationship with anyone, I can't be doing things like that. You just never mess with a guy's best friend. It's like one of those rules.
Healthcare
My absence yesterday was because I spent the day in the ER here due to intense stomach spasms and low grade fever (though I think I was just overheated by the pain). It sucked. I"ve had stomach pains for many years, few of which have been solved. This spasming has been going on for 3 weeks but very minutely. Pains here and there that pass but have been increasing over the past week.
At 6 am yesterday morning I start getting pains that increase in severity, to the point I'm tossing and turning, screaming, getting sick and just generally being very sick. Now, I've been through stuff like this before and it goes away after 6 hours or so but by 12:30 pm, it still wasn't letting up so I made the horrid decision to go to the hospital. I was hoping, praying because it was a Sunday, it wouldn't be too busy. I waited at least 1 1/2 hours to get in to get a bed. Then another hour to be seen by a doctor to get some tests ordered and thank god, an IV and anti-spasmodics. Wait around for another hour to get x-rays done and blood work done. Everything came back normal except for having a ton of very clear spasms and that's about it. So I get sent home with a bunch of anti-spasmodics and told to rest. Hmmmm... basically that was what I expected and I really wish it didn't take so long. 8 hours later, I got to go home with a relatively clean bill of health.
Ok so after that boo-hoo, poor me... I did have a reason to write all that. Ironically enough, I just watched Sicko on Saturday. In caaaaaaaase you don't know what that is, it's a bias documentary on the healthcare system in the USA by Michael Moore. Whenever I see something by him, it's always a stretch to eliminate his bias comments and try to glean the true facts out of what he's saying. But in the same stretch, I realize that there's not many people out there that are even SAYING what he has to say so at least I'm getting a view point. So, I watched the entire thing and took away the best from it.
The americans have this lovely privatized healthcare system where insurance pays for everything and you pay deductibles. The rich take care of themselves and poor people get nothing unless they can afford it and even then, they'd have to have money to pay for some of it. If you're poor, sick and need help? You're screwed. Much less the cost of prescriptions.
I look at what happened to me yesterday. I was sick. I needed help. Now I'm not "poor" by any means but I sure don't have money in my bank account saved up, I don't have a credit card (haha no identity theft for me) and I didn't have much cash on me. I would not have been able to go to the hospital and get any help. I wouldn't have been able to see a doctor or get any medicine. I would have put it off because I couldn't afford it and IF I had insurance, I would have worried that what happened might not get approved for coverage by my insurance. My blessing is that I live in Canada. Yes, I had to wait. But I got x-rays done, blood tests done, 2 doses of medication, an IV to get my rehydrated and medication to take home with me. Did I have to sign a piece of paper putting the bill to my insurance? No. Did I have to charge anything to a credit card? No. Give them anything at all saying I'd pay for any portion of my treatment? No. I just walked out of the hospital. I didn't once have to think about IF I should get those x-rays done, IF I can afford the medicine, IF I really need that blood work done.
I think that there are definitely things that need to be done to better our health system. The long waits, the lack of proper machines for testing, not enough doctors and nurses, etc. All the problems we have need to be addressed properly and solved so everyone gets the treatment they deserve. BUT from the flipside, everyone gets treatment. There is no bias on how much money you make and the coverage you have. I think that's a blessing and I'm glad I live in Canada.
At 6 am yesterday morning I start getting pains that increase in severity, to the point I'm tossing and turning, screaming, getting sick and just generally being very sick. Now, I've been through stuff like this before and it goes away after 6 hours or so but by 12:30 pm, it still wasn't letting up so I made the horrid decision to go to the hospital. I was hoping, praying because it was a Sunday, it wouldn't be too busy. I waited at least 1 1/2 hours to get in to get a bed. Then another hour to be seen by a doctor to get some tests ordered and thank god, an IV and anti-spasmodics. Wait around for another hour to get x-rays done and blood work done. Everything came back normal except for having a ton of very clear spasms and that's about it. So I get sent home with a bunch of anti-spasmodics and told to rest. Hmmmm... basically that was what I expected and I really wish it didn't take so long. 8 hours later, I got to go home with a relatively clean bill of health.
Ok so after that boo-hoo, poor me... I did have a reason to write all that. Ironically enough, I just watched Sicko on Saturday. In caaaaaaaase you don't know what that is, it's a bias documentary on the healthcare system in the USA by Michael Moore. Whenever I see something by him, it's always a stretch to eliminate his bias comments and try to glean the true facts out of what he's saying. But in the same stretch, I realize that there's not many people out there that are even SAYING what he has to say so at least I'm getting a view point. So, I watched the entire thing and took away the best from it.
The americans have this lovely privatized healthcare system where insurance pays for everything and you pay deductibles. The rich take care of themselves and poor people get nothing unless they can afford it and even then, they'd have to have money to pay for some of it. If you're poor, sick and need help? You're screwed. Much less the cost of prescriptions.
I look at what happened to me yesterday. I was sick. I needed help. Now I'm not "poor" by any means but I sure don't have money in my bank account saved up, I don't have a credit card (haha no identity theft for me) and I didn't have much cash on me. I would not have been able to go to the hospital and get any help. I wouldn't have been able to see a doctor or get any medicine. I would have put it off because I couldn't afford it and IF I had insurance, I would have worried that what happened might not get approved for coverage by my insurance. My blessing is that I live in Canada. Yes, I had to wait. But I got x-rays done, blood tests done, 2 doses of medication, an IV to get my rehydrated and medication to take home with me. Did I have to sign a piece of paper putting the bill to my insurance? No. Did I have to charge anything to a credit card? No. Give them anything at all saying I'd pay for any portion of my treatment? No. I just walked out of the hospital. I didn't once have to think about IF I should get those x-rays done, IF I can afford the medicine, IF I really need that blood work done.
I think that there are definitely things that need to be done to better our health system. The long waits, the lack of proper machines for testing, not enough doctors and nurses, etc. All the problems we have need to be addressed properly and solved so everyone gets the treatment they deserve. BUT from the flipside, everyone gets treatment. There is no bias on how much money you make and the coverage you have. I think that's a blessing and I'm glad I live in Canada.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Holly McNarland
I just wanted to note my pleasure that this little Canadian gem has come back into the singing spotlight. She has a beautiful voice and so strong in her music. There is a new song she has come out with and has been on one of the radio stations I listen to frequently. I wish her all the best and hope more people take to her than did the last time around. Elmo was great tho and so was Coward. Strong voice and a beauty all her own. Cheers...
Perhaps I will post links at a future date to give her the credit she deserves.
Perhaps I will post links at a future date to give her the credit she deserves.
Matters of discussion
Right so I can see I'm going to be a bit addicted to this blogging for the first little while. Usually I only write when I'm extremely frustrated and angry and that's for my own personal record, not to just write for the sake of writing. Anyways, point being... Sometimes I have these discussions with my friends and we get going off on these odd little tangents. I wonder if we're quite sane or insane, at times.
So I was talking to ... I'll call him J cuz it suits him. He's this on again/off again long-term non-commited but I want more relationship that I've had for the past almost 2 years. He lives in another city but we still talk on a regular basis. Anyways, we were talking and I'd brought up what I'd read in the news the day before. RE: the monkey/evolution thing I mentioned in my first post. The story is that the evolution theory has now been not quite de-bunked but had a wrench (or rather a skull) thrown into the mix. Said skull is found to have lived side by side one of the species we were believed to have "evolved" from instead of being one of the species they evolved from. If that makes sense to you anyways. Scientists have long been trying to prove this whole evolution theory and make all these links to make Darwin correct. They seemingly can never find it and haven't yet been able to prove we evolved from monkeys. I don't believe it, personally. Why do the same monkeys exist now as they did millions of years ago with very little change? We exist in basically the same ways, save for our own technological advances and environmental factors. I find it hard to believe we had tails and fur and just transformed slowly into what we are today. I think we adapted but not evolved. I've yet to see fossils that show a progession of one kind of animal into another. Fossils either show animals that died out and don't exist anymore or show animals that still exist to this day in exactly the same way as before.
So! We were discussing this theory of mine, the article, etc. and somehow the discussion turned to how teenagers hit puberty based on region. I wasn't expecting this nor had I given it any thought. J thinks that in North America, we all hit puberty early and by about 14 years of age, are basically completed the growth process. I tend to disagree that it's finished by 14 years of age but I do see many teenagers that are small adults, fully developed by 14 years of age. I, myself, was pretty much there at 14. Not mentally speaking but physically. His experience (he grew up in Africa) is that at 14 back home, teenagers are nowhere near that stage in puberty, on average. He says the same is in India, Pakistan and China, based on his knowledge. Granting I am not giving him God-like status, I can't say yes or no to his theory.
BUT given this opinion, I asked him if he thought he knows why. Personally, I'd say it may be something to do with the environment over a period of time. Here in North America, teenagers are given an adult freedom to roam around in packs, have jobs, have virtually endless dispensable income and have boyfriends/girlfriends and having been doing this now for 2 generations, let's say? I'd venture to say that possibly our environment has created the ability to grow up faster and so, the bodies have started to develop faster. Given this is a very off to top of my head guess with no scientific basis, who knows but I had to see if I could come up with an explanation. J's explanation is it is in the food we eat. At first, I was shocked and curious as to what he meant. He says that we have so much processed and altered food in our diet that it has affected our growth hormones somehow. I had to consider this, truly, you know? We do have many genetically altered vegetables, fruits and specifically bred animals to be the biggest, most productive food products. In turn, is it not possible that this may get passed down to our children and they hit puberty sooner? I can't say but it's a theory.
I did do some googling on it and puberty does seem to have not only a genetic link but a dietary link. That a group of people in europe, regardless of race, tend to hit puberty, on average at the same time and from region to region, it tends to be the same. The one universal is diet. There was a study saying that zinc may have a factor. Another saying that rich cultures with lots of foods leads to early onset of puberty. Yet another linked obesity in children to early onset of puberty. One wonders if obese children, rich diets, rich culture is the link but I didn't look too deeply. I just found it an interesting thought to ponder.
So I was talking to ... I'll call him J cuz it suits him. He's this on again/off again long-term non-commited but I want more relationship that I've had for the past almost 2 years. He lives in another city but we still talk on a regular basis. Anyways, we were talking and I'd brought up what I'd read in the news the day before. RE: the monkey/evolution thing I mentioned in my first post. The story is that the evolution theory has now been not quite de-bunked but had a wrench (or rather a skull) thrown into the mix. Said skull is found to have lived side by side one of the species we were believed to have "evolved" from instead of being one of the species they evolved from. If that makes sense to you anyways. Scientists have long been trying to prove this whole evolution theory and make all these links to make Darwin correct. They seemingly can never find it and haven't yet been able to prove we evolved from monkeys. I don't believe it, personally. Why do the same monkeys exist now as they did millions of years ago with very little change? We exist in basically the same ways, save for our own technological advances and environmental factors. I find it hard to believe we had tails and fur and just transformed slowly into what we are today. I think we adapted but not evolved. I've yet to see fossils that show a progession of one kind of animal into another. Fossils either show animals that died out and don't exist anymore or show animals that still exist to this day in exactly the same way as before.
So! We were discussing this theory of mine, the article, etc. and somehow the discussion turned to how teenagers hit puberty based on region. I wasn't expecting this nor had I given it any thought. J thinks that in North America, we all hit puberty early and by about 14 years of age, are basically completed the growth process. I tend to disagree that it's finished by 14 years of age but I do see many teenagers that are small adults, fully developed by 14 years of age. I, myself, was pretty much there at 14. Not mentally speaking but physically. His experience (he grew up in Africa) is that at 14 back home, teenagers are nowhere near that stage in puberty, on average. He says the same is in India, Pakistan and China, based on his knowledge. Granting I am not giving him God-like status, I can't say yes or no to his theory.
BUT given this opinion, I asked him if he thought he knows why. Personally, I'd say it may be something to do with the environment over a period of time. Here in North America, teenagers are given an adult freedom to roam around in packs, have jobs, have virtually endless dispensable income and have boyfriends/girlfriends and having been doing this now for 2 generations, let's say? I'd venture to say that possibly our environment has created the ability to grow up faster and so, the bodies have started to develop faster. Given this is a very off to top of my head guess with no scientific basis, who knows but I had to see if I could come up with an explanation. J's explanation is it is in the food we eat. At first, I was shocked and curious as to what he meant. He says that we have so much processed and altered food in our diet that it has affected our growth hormones somehow. I had to consider this, truly, you know? We do have many genetically altered vegetables, fruits and specifically bred animals to be the biggest, most productive food products. In turn, is it not possible that this may get passed down to our children and they hit puberty sooner? I can't say but it's a theory.
I did do some googling on it and puberty does seem to have not only a genetic link but a dietary link. That a group of people in europe, regardless of race, tend to hit puberty, on average at the same time and from region to region, it tends to be the same. The one universal is diet. There was a study saying that zinc may have a factor. Another saying that rich cultures with lots of foods leads to early onset of puberty. Yet another linked obesity in children to early onset of puberty. One wonders if obese children, rich diets, rich culture is the link but I didn't look too deeply. I just found it an interesting thought to ponder.
The setting of my life
I live in Western Canada and not in a metropolis city. Rather I live in a "city" that has much more persona of a small-town trying to be a big city, than an actual city. Cities tend to have a different feel to them. Here, you can see your big trucks driving around on the roads like they're cars, covered in mud from 4x4'ing in someone's private unknown wilderness or see people walking around, still dressed in traditional canadian lumberjack flannel jackets. Young males aren't usually seen walking around in casual business attire or suits with suitcases, rushing to their jobs after parking their nice new cars. They tend to run around in baseball caps backwards and the usual t-shirts, jeans combo or the newly acquired screaming Emo look, possibly having jumped off the bus or parked their truck. This is very distinctly redneck land. Women dressing appropriately here, dont even get me started. Either the average business "get-up" is jeans and a shirt that might have classified as "nice" in 1985 or something looking closer to scrubs. Mullets are still popular on women or it's short hair. Then you have the other side of the spectrum and the girls are figuratively screeching skank with how they dress. Don't get me wrong, there are the other kinds, nicely dressed, caring for their outwards appearance and how they carry themselves, it's just the proportions are slighted towards rednecks and their mates and other types I dare not categorize. I guess that may make me seem rather judgemental. I'm hoping I'm not as I strive not to be but sometimes I can't help it. People are people and it takes all kinds to make a world and to share it.
Night life is basically non-existent here save for a few bars, pubs, good restaurants (and crappy) and movie theaters and the odd play or performance. I think I have some envy of the bigger cities as they have choices. Here, we just rotate, rinse and repeat. Summer usually consists of bonfires at someone's out of town cabin, drinking and laughing or the same kind of behaviour at a lake or river. Winter months means moving indoors and doing the same thing at a pub or a bar or a restaurant. Anything of interest, like theater, plays, musicals, local artists, etc. is rather limited and in saying that, I'm also limited in friends who actually have an interest in participating in things like this. It's rather dry. The big excitement here seems to be when the fair is here, monster truck racing, race track races or some old hair band shows up.
So, that's the setting of the city I live in.
About me? I'm 29 and I'm a single mother to 2 boys. I've been single for 5 years. I work full-time in a corporate environment as an analyst and rather enjoy my job. I went to school for a fairly long period of time to get to where I am and I have some sense of pride in that accomplishment. I'm fiercely independent and rather opinionated. I've gotten myself into some frustrating situations, relationship wise and I'm sure I'll explain those things in further postings. A lot of the drama in my life tends to arise from either the way things go at work or my personal life involving men or friends. What I talk about in here will be my opinions/frustrations in these departments OR my never-ending thoughts on life, news, philosophy, stupid facts I've learnt and possibly my children. I'm doubting it will be about my children very often unless it's something extremely frustrating or highly enlightening. There are more than enough blogs from women drivelling on about how wonderful their children are and how they're the next Plato or something of the like. I won't waste my time or yours on these trivial things. I have my memories, videos and pictures of my children, for me and them and their future.
Night life is basically non-existent here save for a few bars, pubs, good restaurants (and crappy) and movie theaters and the odd play or performance. I think I have some envy of the bigger cities as they have choices. Here, we just rotate, rinse and repeat. Summer usually consists of bonfires at someone's out of town cabin, drinking and laughing or the same kind of behaviour at a lake or river. Winter months means moving indoors and doing the same thing at a pub or a bar or a restaurant. Anything of interest, like theater, plays, musicals, local artists, etc. is rather limited and in saying that, I'm also limited in friends who actually have an interest in participating in things like this. It's rather dry. The big excitement here seems to be when the fair is here, monster truck racing, race track races or some old hair band shows up.
So, that's the setting of the city I live in.
About me? I'm 29 and I'm a single mother to 2 boys. I've been single for 5 years. I work full-time in a corporate environment as an analyst and rather enjoy my job. I went to school for a fairly long period of time to get to where I am and I have some sense of pride in that accomplishment. I'm fiercely independent and rather opinionated. I've gotten myself into some frustrating situations, relationship wise and I'm sure I'll explain those things in further postings. A lot of the drama in my life tends to arise from either the way things go at work or my personal life involving men or friends. What I talk about in here will be my opinions/frustrations in these departments OR my never-ending thoughts on life, news, philosophy, stupid facts I've learnt and possibly my children. I'm doubting it will be about my children very often unless it's something extremely frustrating or highly enlightening. There are more than enough blogs from women drivelling on about how wonderful their children are and how they're the next Plato or something of the like. I won't waste my time or yours on these trivial things. I have my memories, videos and pictures of my children, for me and them and their future.
The first entry
And so here I am, this somewhat chilly morning on a Saturday in August. Definitely shows I'm living in Canada.
This blog has been prompted by my own a) slight boredom at work and b) my own interest in other bloggers. Mind you I will state that I'm not going to be writing in this while I'm at work (and I'm not at work right now, I'm at home). I just had a day where I had many tasks at work that were stuck in the state of "Waiting on someone else" and I was rather sick of reading news about how maybe we don't directly evolve from monkeys, it's a twisted path of evolution. Can't they just admit that Darwin was wrong? *sigh* I digress.
So I was reading this one woman's blog who had made the top 10 list of Canadian blogs and found it rather fascinating. In some aspects, I think she found that she had revealed too much about herself but that was rather her undoing by having her family and friends reading her blog. I have no such plans. This is purely for me and any stragglers that happen to latch on and decide I'm interesting enough to read about.
I've been told before that I have a natural ability to write so we'll see how it goes. I know if given the time, I surely do like to write and express my frustrations but I have a very difficult time of letting go and opening up. Hence, I'm hoping my commited anonymity of a blog will allow me to do so and who knows, maybe even get some feedback.
This blog has been prompted by my own a) slight boredom at work and b) my own interest in other bloggers. Mind you I will state that I'm not going to be writing in this while I'm at work (and I'm not at work right now, I'm at home). I just had a day where I had many tasks at work that were stuck in the state of "Waiting on someone else" and I was rather sick of reading news about how maybe we don't directly evolve from monkeys, it's a twisted path of evolution. Can't they just admit that Darwin was wrong? *sigh* I digress.
So I was reading this one woman's blog who had made the top 10 list of Canadian blogs and found it rather fascinating. In some aspects, I think she found that she had revealed too much about herself but that was rather her undoing by having her family and friends reading her blog. I have no such plans. This is purely for me and any stragglers that happen to latch on and decide I'm interesting enough to read about.
I've been told before that I have a natural ability to write so we'll see how it goes. I know if given the time, I surely do like to write and express my frustrations but I have a very difficult time of letting go and opening up. Hence, I'm hoping my commited anonymity of a blog will allow me to do so and who knows, maybe even get some feedback.
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